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Sat, 10 Nov 2007 23:18:24 GMT

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|	16%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	44%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Indie	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%

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ReVamp!

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 13:37:25 GMT

Revamped some sites! Also have a few new fanlistings...

Pichi-Pichi.net - New Layout
Change of Pace: Nina Sakura FL - New Layout
Thaumaturgy: Kirishima Yuta FL - New Layout
Bittersweet Beginning: D.C. ~Da Capo~ FL - New Layout
True Smile: Kimi Shika Iranai FL - New Layout

New FL (WISHLISTER YAY!): Evermore - Tsujiai & Nina

Thats all for now~

More Fanlsitings!

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 01:31:23 GMT

Two new additions to my humble little collection...

Listen: Babel
Playground: Little Children

...both movies.

Thats all~

More Updates

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 04:03:27 GMT

New layouts and stuffs!

Bright Side: A Rikku Shrine
Pichi-Pichi: Fanlisting Collective
Bittersweet Beginning: D.C. ~Da Capo~ Fanlisting

Thats all for now. :)

Resurrection.

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 03:56:01 GMT

I haven't posted here in 29 weeks...OH GOSH! Yah so I got pretty distracted for a while... but now I'm back into webdesign and such. So, without further ado... I redid the layouts of the following:

Collective - Peek-a-Boo.us
Personal Site - Moi
Exit
Ultra Maniac: Nina Fanlisting - Change of Pace

I also made a few fanlistings...

FFXII: Reks - Galbana Lily
Snowden - and Captivate

Thats all for today folks... please tune in again soon! ...haha.

Where?

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 00:09:07 GMT

The good stuff is hiding from me, and I can't seem to find it. Or maybe it can't find me?

Meh.

NYC

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 19:17:28 GMT

Im about to go off to NYC for the weekend. But of course, something has to go wrong. My aunts car breaks down in my driveway, goody! No problem though, she is getting it towed and we are going to rent a car or take the train. Who knows. Im starving, but my kitchen is closed off since someone is redoing the counters. I feel helpless and void of anything to do at the moment, so I think I will fool around on ffxi or something. ...Hopefully Ill get to NYC in one piece!

Bai.

De javu?

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 03:40:52 GMT

Haha, these are always fun.

Post an anonymous comment with the following:

1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note, but it does not have to be for me.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends. [[if we`re not friends just ignore question]]
8. And a hint to who you are.
9. After you do it for me, put it in your LJ and see who does it for you.

In the clouds.

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 02:04:41 GMT

Haha, Im dumb. Oh, and oblivious. Its SO funny!

Oh, Sophistication

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 01:50:22 GMT

My father disgusts me. He really is revolting. He comes up into my room wanting to watch this football game on TV or something. Ok, no problem. I go to the computer and look around at some photography sites. He starts chewing in an excessively loud fashion. Then he proceeds to burp, loudly. He has been really bothersome lately. He then drains his beer, stands up and leaves. I can't wait to get out of this dump.

So I made a myspace the other day while I was bored. I didn't think it would prove of any use to me other than sheer entertainment from looking at how many slutty girls there are in the world. Well, I have discovered a whole new use for it. I find one of my favorite photographers websites and figure out she has a myspace. I go to it, look around and discover that through her I can get to a ton of other photographers myspaces. I'm not talking professional photographers persay, not the kind that work for nat'l geographic, but the kind that take the types of pictures I love. So Im having lots of fun looking at all of these wonderful photographers and models myspaces, it really is fascinating. Looking around at these little myspaces makes me want to be like them in a way. I know, that sounds stupid, but theyre all so sophisticated, and they take the nicest pictures. Their whole lifestyle seems nice. I also found it sort of amusing that almost none of the people I found live in America. They all live in Europe or Japan. This one girl who lives in Paris, she has the most amazing pictures. It made me want to go to Paris so much. Ahhh, someday. Well, Im off. My dad is back, and he is being annoying.

Bai.

Read My Mind

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 05:13:01 GMT

Im so confused.

And very tired.

Conflict!

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 04:15:06 GMT

Too many conflicting thoughts and feelings! Someone needs to put my mind at rest.

Unfortunately, you dont know who you are exactly. Neither do I, in fact.

Oh, and I need to stop being awkward.

Trapped.

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 21:04:56 GMT

That A OK post was a complete lie. Dont you hate it when you feel completely trapped? Feeling like there is no way out, and that you will just end up hurting everyone if you try and follow your own emotions. Well thats how I feel right now. It certainly isn't fun. I just want to tell everyone the truth, and I have started trying to do that. Its so unreasonably hard. Its also hard because I have to support myself during this ordeal. Everyone else has their own problems they have to deal with. They are their own stars in the grand constellation. Im my own star, and Ill have to keep on shining by myself, and through my own will power. Thats the only way left, I think.

Its not so bad!

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 21:33:24 GMT

Everything is A OK.

...But there is still a constellation. With some more stars added... this is when I wink and laugh.

To much at once.

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 10:38:50 GMT

I swear right now that I will not wallow in self pity. So please, dont say I am. I wont, its obviously not helping very much. And I still dont know why I have bad feelings. There isnt anything to feel bad about anymore.

So much at once!

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 00:27:29 GMT

Oh dear. I just found out I am going to Virginia from Friday till Sunday this week, and I have so much work to do for school. Stress times ten million! I have to do a Crucible analysis essay and the whole personal field trip project for English. That may not sound like a lot, but it really is. Im not sure how I am going to manage to do all of that, and go to play practice, and visit the field trip site I was assigned. Oh my, I think I will just start my Crucible essay now and finish it in directed tommorow. Well, time to get started!

Bai.

I like lacy, beady things.

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 01:52:14 GMT

My mom is being horribly annoying. Her logic really baffles me sometimes. She is lucky I am not anorexic or doing drugs or something. Most people in my place would be in one of those phases if they had to deal with the stuff my mom puts me through.

Anyways.

I wrote two new poems...

I sit, shivering
in the cold of night,
under an ebony sky,
peppered with pearls of light.
If I sit here
forever,
will I ever
be released from the confinement
you lay upon my heart?

-

Into slumberland you may go.
The day of waking is soon to come.
Your face, so aglow,
how unfortunate it is that you must succumb
to this forced conjury.

-

I went to the TriM car wash today, it was tiring but fun. I went to Anna's house after and we had lots of fun conversations. She informed me of a supposed Halloween dance that may happen. That would be so fun! I love dressing up for Halloween, although I'm a bit old for trick or treating so a dance sounds great haha. I cant wait for all of the dances that will happen this year, I'm sure they will be enjoyable. I wonder if I will go alone to them or not, we shall see. Speculating about these things is always entertaining. Go go over analyzation!! I'm out of it, and tired, so I think I will go read or something now. This entry was probably very random. Oh well.

Bai.

Poems.

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 01:21:05 GMT

Name

Searching the skies for a name,
Something to call
you.
Staring into the frosted horizon
I think to myself,
When I tread through the drizzly grass,
When I trek through the snow.
I think of
Those times when bliss was familiar,
and we knew each other.
We knew of names.
Now all is wandering,
Wandering the hillocks of my heart.

-

Promise

I made a promise,
as the sun sank beyond the
placid horizon.

The sun sank as my
heart sank, you had broke my trust.
Once an ardent girl.

Now an effete maid.
I forgive you and forget,
For you are sure to

change.

-

I know, I know. Such uncreative names!

Choose!

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 19:40:22 GMT

Ok, first of all. I want to enter a haiku into the Chameleon (among many other things I already enetered) but I cant seem to decide which one of my three favorites to enter. Help me choose!

tranquil melody --
an echo of sorts;
placid as the sunset

&

melancholy mist;
her words are lost in the haze,
eternal silence

&

water paints the air -
liquid sunshine paints her heart -
the portrait: complete

Anyways, I went to the MFA yesterday with my Aunt. It was great, we went into the Americans in Paris exhibit that is there right now, it was great. I really enjoyed Mary Cassatt's and Sargent's works the most out of the whole exhibit. It really was stunning, the exhibit as a whole. It had some amazing paintings. If you ever go to one of these MFA exhibits, get the headphone tour thingy, its really entertaining. It really tells you alot about the history of some of the paintings, the one for this exhibit was quite interesting. After the museum we met up with my Uncle and cousin to go out for Indian food. Ive never had Indian food, so I was curious to see if I would like it or not. In the end, it was great. Indian food is so good. Especially their various breads, and this shrimp plate I got was great as well. So good!

So, apparently The Sting has been ruled out as a possibility for this years spring play. Today I was thinking about some plays I would enjoy doing, after I heard this news, and came up with a few ideas. Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility (<3 Jane Austen), any kind of Shakespeare play, The Secret Garden, Alice in Wonderland, The Twelve Dancing Princesses, Sleeping Beauty, Vanity Fair, and a few others. I really want to do a period play, I love period pieces. I also love Princess stories (I know, cheesy, but so good). Well, I guess Ill have to bring up a few of these titles to Mrs. Faust, although Im sure some of them are a bit far fetched.

Im reading Emma right now, its quite good. I think Ill return to it.

Bai.

!

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 23:33:39 GMT

I didnt do as well as I hoped I would at vocal auditions (I had practiced so much too!). I thought I had to leave at 3:30 because I had an orthodontist appointment at 4:15. So I rushed in, went first and was all out of it and rushing. So I ended up sounding pretty bad (imo) and rushed out because I knew my mom would be mad at me for taking so long. I ran out expecting to see her, but nope. So I wait, thinking that she got stuck in traffic. Wait...another few minutes...another few... she never came. So I called the house phone and her cell phone frantically, but to no avail. I had finally resorted to calling my dad when she called, from the house phone. I answer and she says that she had cancelled the appointment. Why she never told me, I will never know. I was so angry and stressed out that I burst into tears and hung up. If I was in a right state of mind I dont think I would have cried, haha. I guess it was just too many emotions at once and I just couldnt handle it. I was, angry, annoyed, stressed, frantic, and disappointed all at the same time. Not cool. Anyways, after a minute I composed myself and went in to watch the rest of the auditions. So, I got into a better mood and walked to Annas house, etc etc. What a ridiculous day, haha. Well, Im really excited to see the cast list tommorow. Anna and I are going to go in early and wait in the pod, watching for the list to go up. I really, really hope its ready! The suspense is killing me.

I have 3 drawings, 2 poems, and one photo so far to submit to the Chameleon. Should I do more? Hmm...

Time for homework.

Bai.

Gah.

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 01:43:50 GMT

So, I just got home from auditions. I dont know, I dont think I did very well. Well, I think I could have done better. Oh well, I guess she knows what my ability for acting is anyways so, I shouldnt worry. I over analyze things way too much. Everyone tells me I do, at least. I think that my song will go well though, my voice teacher really helped me out on it. I sound soooo much better. However, Im afraid Ill screw up an entrance when Im singing. I may have to have someone play the peice for me before I audition, so I can remember the entrances. Oh well, there I go over analyzing things again. My mom just yelled at me for eating one cookie. Wow! Haha, well I think I need sleep.

Bai.

Poem

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 19:46:19 GMT

Perception

A moment of clarity.

The belle of Mother Earth's garden:
A true Venus,
conceived of amenities.
It frolics with the breath Zephyrus,
a free spirit.
Making hardships drip away with the morning dew,
turning complexities into simplicities.
This pristine paragon,
as rooted as it is breathtaking.

I look at it with tender eyes.
This jewel of empyrean,
beheld within a moment of passing.
As easily beheld as it is forgotten.

Meh.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 23:39:02 GMT

So, I went to the drama meeting the other day. Lots and lots of people. Many of which I didnt even know, and some of them are in my grade! I wonder if any of these new girls are any good. If they are... Im not sure thats a good thing (thats mean of me to say, but who wants more competition?). Anyways, come see Love Letters this weekend and help support the Edinburgh (did I spell that right?) trip! Ill be working the box office saturday and possibly going around selling tickets at the Chowderfest. Anna and I will be doing both of those things together, including Willie Ames at the box office. Fun stuff.

Henry just sent me this, parody play of Fiddler. Hahahahahaha...!

I have been thinking about some of the past and current relationships of my friends and people around me today. Not friendships, like romantic relationships. It seems that a very small percentage ever actually succeed. That really is unfortunate, especially when you really think they are going to work out. I dont like when people break up, get back together and repeat the process. This seems to happen quite a bit, that must be excessively stressful. Although, Im not really entitiled to any opinion when it comes to relationships, since I havent the experience haha. Sometimes I wonder what the percentage of relationships around me are actually sincere, and which are just shallow. Why have a relationship when you only like someone for their looks? It seems so useless. Also, why be in a relationship when you can barely communicate? Why go out in the first place if you barely talk to someone? So, if I get into a relationship this year, it will be for sincere reasons, not stupid and immature reasons. Although Id laugh if that happened, with my luck people will continue to solely be attracted to my friends and not me haha. Im not bitter anymore though (stares in amusement at her old emo entries)!

Enya make me happy.

Im practicing Glinda's solo alot, solo auditions are tuesday, normal auditions are monday. Ill have to practice the lines and music alot this weekend. Thankfully, Anna's little sister Mara traded voice lessons with me for next week. So, I will have a lesson before the audition so I can make sure I sound okay. Although Im not the best singer, Ill try my best. I cant wait for auditions, I hope everyone does well. I think Anna and I may sneak in early and watch some of the first time high school auditioners. I wonder if anyone will strike us as being really good. Well, Im going to go finish up some homework.

Bai.

Seriously?

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 14:42:20 GMT

I take some things way too seriously. I never even thought about this until my mom told me that I take the most trivial things way over the top. I really do I think, Im not sure if thats a good thing. Maybe sometimes it can be a good thing? Im sure though, that its a bad thing most of the time. I take things people say to me too seriously, and I make ever little thing seem like the most important thing ever. Like, if someone says something that I take some kind of annoyance to, I will dwell on it for a long time. It will remain in the back of my head, biting at my mind now and then. Of course, I dont always do this. Sometimes I take things too lightly as well. Maybe that whole explanation made no sense. But I needed to put it into words somehow. For my own entertainment at least. I think Ill try my best to fix this problem this year.

Anyways, I think Im going to draw about eight pictures along with a bunch of poems over the next few weeks and try to decide which I should submit to the Chameleon. Im working on my first drawing right now, its coming out nicely I think. I have also written one poem (I may submit one of the haiku I have been writing too). Opinions?

She gazes into the sky
to those stars, up high
a wave breaks
Her heart, blissful
Her thoughts are dreamful
the moon glows
She thinks of her paramour
Evening falls upon the shore
A day without rain
Yet silver inches swallow the sand
As wistful musings consume her heart;
A fool's paradise

Anyways, Im going to continue drawing.

Bai.

New Layout!

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 22:21:28 GMT

Wow, finally I have gotten off my lazy butt and redid the layout on my livejournal. Its cute, I think. The colors are nice and bright haha. Pretty simple too, but I like that.

So, I have survived my first week of school and it has been a strangely fun week. I like all of my classes (did I already say this in my last entry?) so surviving the day is no problem. Oh, by the way, the Scotland and England trip was approved!!! *dances* Im so excited~

Wow, I have nothing to write about. Im sorry, Im being boring.

Well there is a meeting for drama next tuesday, I wonder what is going to be said. Probably the dates for auditions, things like that. Im so excited for drama this year, I think it is going to be extra fun. I wonder what kind of parts I will get! As for The Wizard of Oz, I want to be Glinda but I somehow dont think I will end up getting the part. If I dont get a part in Wizard thats ok, because I really want a part in competition. Seeing as Mrs. Faust thinks Im better at dramatic roles, I think she may consider me for a large role in The Trojan Women. But who knows, its all really unpredictable. I shouldnt be saying that though, seeing as I have the cast for these two first plays all predicted in my head. I also hear that alot of new people are going to do theatre, I wonder how many there will be. I hope there is not too many younger kids, seeing as they will cause a constant ruckus (most likely, some are quiet). I am also curious to see what kind of freshmen are going to audition. I dont really know any of the freshmen (only my neighbors, haha) so I have no idea who will be coming. I guess this year will be quite interesting. Anyways, I need to go babysit.

Enya makes me happy.

Bai.